im back......and im gonna fight...

Monday, September 20, 2010

Well its been a year... A WHOLE YEAR!!!!! i could be thin and healthy by now if i would have just stuck with it..... (makes me mad) why do i always choose failure when success is an option...

for the past couple years i have been thinking alot about having a baby but within the past year my biological clock has been ticking because thats all i think about day and night...

My doctor says i must loose weight before i can get pregnant because of to many health risks... not to mention i dont even get regular periods so i would have difficulty getting pregnant anyways...

the diabetes and high blood pressure just isent the way to go when you want to get pregnant... not a good start!!!!
Theres been countless nights i cry because i want a baby so bad,
I went out the other day and bought a sleeper and hung it up on my kitchen wall so everytime i want to go into the fridge and eat something bad i can look at that and say nooo, i want that baby more..ive made virtual babies online from pictures of myself and my fiance to see what hey would look like... lol, i know its not accurate but hey its the closest thing i got right now.
I just want to hold and love my unborn child...

Bottom line.... i want a baby and i will loose weight so i can have one...
is anyone else out there in my shoes...

So as of yesterday september 19th 2010 i have started to change my life... better choices, no junk food, regular exercise.. i went out and bought Your shape featuring jenny Mccarthy for the wii which i HIGHLY reccomend.... if you havent tried it you should because its awesome.....

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    Hi Holly! So great to see you back on Spark!

    I share your feelings about wanting a child. Once my husband and I find a bigger place to live, we'll start planning :) We unfortunately just don't have the space right now.

    Congratulations on starting new, you know you can always come to me for help or whenever you need me :)

    Good luck, I know you can do this!!!
    3917 days ago
    I'm new to SP, but not new to the struggles of weight loss and management. I can really relate to your situation, since I'm pretty much in the same boat. I would love to have a kid, but I know the risks that are associated with it and being way over what I should weigh. I get frustrated too that I should have lost all of the extra weight by now. I kept setting up goals, and then messing up everything on the weekend, only to start over on Monday. I'm trying to get out of this cycle and only go one way. With the same five pounds I have gained and lost numerous times this year alone, I would have been at my goal weight if I was only going one direction.

    That's a great idea to put your goal right in front of you. Then, it will help you make a conscious decision.

    Be strong & you will reach your goal. emoticon
    3917 days ago
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