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**REALLY** Frustrated with this!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Ok so I promise not to whine too much in this.. Anyways please be nice..I have noticed lately some rude comments on friends blogs..So NOT cool.

Ok so what am a I frustrated with?? That I am an emotional EATER emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
I mean come on!! WHY?? Makes NO sense to EAT every time I get upset..OR frustrated!!
And its not just a couple things..I mean if so I think I could deal with that..Its EVERYTHING!!

Yesterday I was working in a Food Pantry..Which I emoticon emoticon
Yes I took me a lunch..
Well I didn't think about ALL the things I had to do after..Once the Pantry was over,I didn't get home until almost 5 hrs later..Once I got home it'd been 7 hrs since I had ate anything!!
Being a diabetic I was FAMISHED!! NEED FOOD!!
Instead of me snacking on an apple until dinner..I ate my little boys snack cakes..pop tarts..AND.. emoticon

And yes I felt so emoticonI know we all have these days..I'm just sick of FOOD having power over me!! I will have to fight this for the rest of my life.To me that is sad..

Today our Church will be catering at another Church because of a death. I will be around LOTS of food..Thinking I will just bring my own..Track it before I even leave,then I know I have done GOOD!!
It would be different if I could be trusted to have just a little bit..Just ONE portion..BUT I can NOT trust myself!! Hey I'm not gonna lie..I can't.I am a PIG!!

I need to PRAY this junk off of me emoticon
Today I will do GREAT!! I'm claiming it now!!

If you have any advice..PLEASE share..I would so appreciate it emoticon

I have claimed MY DAY..Now you do it!! LETS do this!!
God Bless my SparkFamily~~Christina
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  • JIBBIE49
    emoticon Sweets and breads can be such a problem. I read the "BECK Diet Solution" by Judith Beck, PhD. She's a professor at the U. of Penn. I got the book at the library. She teaches how to THINK like a THIN person. We have a team for support.
    3735 days ago
  • STELA731
    Christina, don't beat yourself up. Shedding is so right - you're so busy caring for everyone else! She's also right about not having those sugary snacks in the house. My now 10 year old loves his apples thanks to a TV show years ago that he loved and the main character used to call apples "sports candy". Forgot the name of the show!

    As for me, I love having almonds around. Usually have some before dinner. Another thing that works for me when I'm about to have something that is high in calories, I think how hard it will be to burn it afterwards. One of my favorite things is a Haagen Daaz chocolate bar - and it's 350 calories. I look at it and think that's about 40 minutes running and it really puts it in perspective!
    3770 days ago
    Whoah there - you are NOT a pig - you are just a Swan having a bad day:)

    So there with you on the emotional eating - how does it make sense that when we feel low or bummed the first thing we want to do is the worst thing for us - the human mind has a mind of its own!

    Cardio ALWAYS seem to give me a boost - just taking a quick 15 minutes to get your heartrate up can do wonders. Its hard to sometimes step back and take a breath but it always helps.

    And make the trash can you friend - I don't care what ANYONE says about wasting food - if you are half way through that twinky or ho ho (or whatever you weird Americans call these things emoticon give yourself a split second of willpower and throw the rest in the trash. These sorts of treats tend to be standing up in the kitchen stuffing your face treats so the trash can is not far away!

    Well actually I not only throw in in the trash I push it right down so its covered in trashy badness, stand there and point at the trash can, make an angry face and say "And THATS where YOU belong BUDDY!!!!" or similar words that I perhaps can not type here.

    Keep on - we are all here to support you.

    3770 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/21/2011 12:51:44 AM
    I hear you and I understand and I have been there and will always be there.. but when I follow my eating plan... I don't struggle!

    THAT is because my plan does not have sugar and breads (white flour) etc.

    Food just does not have a pull on me when I abstain from foods and stay on this plan.

    I just wrote 3 new blogs addressing all of this!

    READ them when you have time!
    3771 days ago
  • DANGEL117
    I am also diabetic, I surround myself with sugar free hard candy. And I always have a Fiber One Bar everywhere I go. Fiber One Bars are a Great Emergency snack. They are also great pre-binge snacks, or to eat before you go around alot of food your not supposed to eat. For me they hit the spot!
    3771 days ago
    Well I wish I could help you, other than praying for you, because I have this same problem. I too hate that food has control over me and you.

    I can control my food most of the time, but when I get anxious, I go crazy and want to eat and eat and eat. And it is never veggies or anything that is good for me, it is usually junk.

    I do hope that you did better today. The one thing I can say is that when you went 7 hours then your body things you are going to starve forever, so it is never good and the body wants to get the blood sugar up so, it will grab anything in site.

    3771 days ago
    emoticon Christina emoticon
    Oh, I am right there with you!!! (and saying a prayer for you on this one) But, know that you are not alone in feeling this way...but, you are not alone in wanting to conquer it!!!

    As for the church dinner, I have found that I am no longer afraid of those types of events. I have begun to fix one plate and one spoon of each thing I want. It's enough to satisfy and not kill us on calorie counts for the day.

    I wish I had better answers for everything, but I'm struggling to find my balance these days. I love Kashi TLC bars because they are so filling and have what I need when the sugar goes wacky, but they are so expensive. I'd love to find something that satisfies like they do.

    But, you can do it!!!!! emoticon
    3771 days ago
    Hang in there!
    Firs of all, you are doing great work out there in the world emoticon . Take all that loving, giving energy and shine some of that light on YOU. You are amazing at taking care of others- be sure you don't get so tired that you don't have the energy to take care of yourself- pack an apple for a snack on the way home etc.
    I think one challenge for all of us emotional eaters is to kick to the curb the negative feelings of frustration. And instead, to tap into tough but positive love towards ourselves- channel the emotion of love into staying power in the face of our trigger foods. But it is brutally hard when preparing food for our kids not to slip up- nibbles here and there under the radar at the very least.
    ALso, sounds like you were really tired as well as low blood sugar- for me, if i keep an apple in the car to have on the way home, i get home w/o being at the very bottom energy wise and have the energy to make better choices.
    Sounds like your triggers are sweet carbs/ bready things? Boy do those get me- i just need them to NOT be around as an option. Maybe that would be hard for your lovely little guy- but maybe he'd take to apples, a slice of cheese etc instead. You'd be safe. He'd be experiencing those as comfort foods years from now. All sounds so easy but it isn't!
    Anyway, i amy be off -just trying to help and you are already on your way to making it work for you- identifying the pattern is the best and biggest step!
    3772 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/19/2011 9:26:25 AM
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