Not a Bright and Bouncy Blog - Sorry!
Thursday, February 03, 2011
This year so far, it seems like I am perpetually digging out from something, not making progress like I was last year. It’s hard maintaining!
I got to within 4 lb. of my goal weight last Fall, and since then I have gained 6 pounds. Now I have 10 to lose. Sigh.
And stuff that makes me go backwards can happen in just a few days. Eternal vigilance really is the price of success. This weight will not stay off by itself.
Case in point:
A week ago Monday, everything was looking as bright as possible. A bit of bloating because TOM is coming, but hey, what else is new. (note to the Universe: I want menopause for my birthday…please???)
Went to the gym, had a great leg workout. After I got home, my back started hurting. I guess I overdid it a bit. That happens too. Normally, I am fine the next day.
At the same time, sonny boy came home with a cold, which after fighting for a few days, I finally got. I don’t get colds anymore, thankfully, unless someone brings one home and repeatedly inoculates me with it.
Then for some reason my PMS kicked into high gear. I was blowing up like a balloon and had the most intense food cravings. I mean like big time. Carbs, sweets, alcohol, you name it, if it’s not on the eating plan, I want it.
So that was Tuesday to Friday. Fighting the cold, fighting the urge to eat, and forcing myself to get work done through my aching back. Finally Friday, forget it, I’m done. I’m sick. To bed I go.
So I am in bed out of it big time all weekend. When I get a cold, I don’t fool around. I can’t think clearly at all. I have no energy and all I can do is lay there. And eat (feed a cold, right?) So laying around, my back is feeling much better, I guess I am so distracted with all the other complaints I don’t feel it.
There’s one week completely shot. Food, out the window. Exercise, are you kidding me??
So Monday I am feeling like I can breathe and function again, and WHAMMO! here comes the back pain again, so severe I can barely move around. Getting out of a chair – pure torture. And the weather is glorious, sunny, even halfway warm, so I want to potter around outside. No way. Humph.
Wednesday I was able to do a bit of my daughter’s Just Dance 2 game. (Side note: that game is really, really fun, get it if you have a Wii). I was mostly moving my arms about; trying not to move my trunk so as not to make things worse. But at least it was something.
Today I will see how I feel after I get my work done. I might pop in to the gym, just to make an appearance and get back into the groove.
Not working out for almost 2 weeks is really killing me. I can see the return of my old ways on the horizon. The habits that got me fat in the first place – eating all the time, not moving, drinking liquid libations every night….oh, yeah, we all know well that worked. Ugh.
So I’m examining my motives – did I throw in the towel and purposely sabotage myself??
Honestly, I don’t think so. Well, I guess I could have stayed home from the gym and locked my son out of the house (kidding, I’m kidding!). And as for the cravings – I get them once in a while, and I confess I haven’t figured out how to deal with them yet. They are hormonal in nature, and not usually that bad. Generally I just roll with them, go over my calories for a couple days and live with it. This time, what can I say, a lot worse.
Now it’s hard for me to get back on the wagon. Some foods that I normally eat just seem yucky right now. I’m still craving the comfort food.
Okay, I read this over, and I am depressing myself reading it. I guess we are supposed to be uplifting and always look on the bright side of things, but the truth is the truth. Maybe next time it will be sunshine and bubbles...I hope so.
Thanks for listening to me whine. I love my Spark community!!!