My first SP Blog entry... I'm Brave
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
(I'm sure there is a way to make this blog pretty - I just haven't figured it out yet - but I will.)
I have to say - I'm excited. I feel so motivated and committed to this change.
I've been in this mind-set before, (I'm sure everyone with a lot of weight to lose has.) however, the postings I'm reading on SP are really helping me. I've realized something very big: I need to become brave.
I must look at my weight and fitness level - as it is - where it is right now - and bravely face it. Let me tell you, that task isn't for the meek!
I was hesitant to post my actual weight numbers - choosing instead to use the overall "how much I want to lose" tracker. I've decided that option isn't brave enough for me. An epiphany? Maybe. I'm realizing that little fears in my brain may be what has been actually holding me back from succeeding at making permanent healthy changes. Fears of what? I'm not sure. Maybe of success. Maybe of people noticing me in a physical way. Maybe of not living up to some kind of random expectations. I definitely have an irrational fear of injury due to some congenital knee problems.
But guess what? I'm 47. I'm done with not being brave. So as of today, I'm brave. I'm facing myself as I am - and I'll help myself let go of those things holding me back. I'm brave. I can do this.