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My first SP Blog entry... I'm Brave

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

(I'm sure there is a way to make this blog pretty - I just haven't figured it out yet - but I will.)

I have to say - I'm excited. I feel so motivated and committed to this change.

I've been in this mind-set before, (I'm sure everyone with a lot of weight to lose has.) however, the postings I'm reading on SP are really helping me. I've realized something very big: I need to become brave.

I must look at my weight and fitness level - as it is - where it is right now - and bravely face it. Let me tell you, that task isn't for the meek!

I was hesitant to post my actual weight numbers - choosing instead to use the overall "how much I want to lose" tracker. I've decided that option isn't brave enough for me. An epiphany? Maybe. I'm realizing that little fears in my brain may be what has been actually holding me back from succeeding at making permanent healthy changes. Fears of what? I'm not sure. Maybe of success. Maybe of people noticing me in a physical way. Maybe of not living up to some kind of random expectations. I definitely have an irrational fear of injury due to some congenital knee problems.

But guess what? I'm 47. I'm done with not being brave. So as of today, I'm brave. I'm facing myself as I am - and I'll help myself let go of those things holding me back. I'm brave. I can do this.
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  • BIGMAMAT
    You can do this!!! emoticon
    3728 days ago
  • DONNALIZ67
    I can relate!!! You are braver than I am...my ticker only shows how much I want to lose. But you've got me thinking about changing it...
    3746 days ago
  • DEE0973
    You are very brave and will do great on your journey even on those not so great days...Be Blessed
    3747 days ago
  • MINIDRIVER63
    It's a little intimidating, isn't it? The truth is, the more you put out there, the more you get back from this community.

    In the 10 months I've been on Sparkpeople, nobody has ever made fun of one of my pictures (even this embarrassing bathing suit shot!!). Nobody has ever criticized me for my weight numbers. Even when I gained 5 pounds on vacation, everyone was loving and supportive.

    I have knee problems too. And I find the more I use my knees, the less they hurt. Yes, I've overdone it and have been sore for days. But when I get regular exercise I don't have the day-to-day pains (climbing stairs, for example) I have when I'm more sedentary.

    Making sparkfriends is an important part of this process. Supporting them and being supported really helps me a lot. And the more you share via blogs, emails, and other info the more your friends will come to love and support you.

    Welcome!

    3747 days ago
  • GLMOM2
    emoticon to SparkPeople!

    I understand the whole being brave thing. I hated the idea of posting pics of myself on here but I bit the bullet and did it. We all have our things we need to brave on & overcome those fears.

    I think putting ourselves out here (for me anyway) makes us more accountable for our actions, whether they be good or bad!

    Keep blogging & sparking on - it will help you!!

    emoticon
    3747 days ago
  • SPARK-KELLI
    YOU ROCK!!

    You *ARE* brave and YES, you CAN do this!!

    emoticon emoticon
    3747 days ago
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