I CAN have a burger if I want one!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
I’m feeling in a reflective mood today... hopeful and well, I don’t know. I’m trying to work out my feelings. I’m not hungry and I wasn’t thinking about food until I thought that I’m not hungry – and now the granola bar on my desk is whispering “eat me now! Don’t wait until later!” Go away, Granola bar – you will be my afternoon snack and only if you are lucky!
I’ve just started reading Geneen Roth’s book “When you Eat at the Refridgerator, Pull up a Chair” and I’m liking it so far. I liked her story about when she “stopped dieting” and just ate a whole tub of ice-cream because she could... and then did it just once more before she realised that she didn’t need to eat the whole tub and that would just make her feel sick. As she was no longer on a diet, she didn’t need to “rebel” from it.
Another trick Geneen recommends is to “Cultivate Curiosity” - to think about why you ate (or hopefully just want to eat) a whole tub of ice-cream. What prompted you to feel that you needed comfort from food and is food the best comfort for the issue at hand – probably not. If you are having a bad day at work – and want to eat – the eating is not going to help but understanding why the day is bad is one step forward (maybe you need a new job!). I’m just a few chapters in, and it’s a fast and easy read. Unfortunately I didn’t realise where I was when I was reading it on the bus this morning and I missed my bus stop!
My “21 day no binge challenge” has been going well. This is day 19. I’ve found it easier the longer I do it. I think I will extend it and see if I can make a 42 day challenge.
I did a C25K workout this morning. It was my first week 4 which includes 2 x 5 minute runs and 2 x 3 minute runs... I’m certainly getting there! I’m also reading a book on womens’ running in which a trainer suggests to view hills as helping you to get stronger – rather than as a challenge or something in the way of the flat, easy runs. My last 5 minute run was mostly uphill and I chose to view it as helping me get stronger so I ran all the way. OK, a walker probably could have passed me on the inside track but still, I was bouncing along burning more calories and getting fitter than if I’d walked it.
The scales aren’t going down. This is a bit disappointing – as my waist measurement is also not getting any smaller. I need to really work on my weekend eating. I understand the portion size thing well now but my brain seems to switch off when it comes to ordering food when we eat out and I don’t chose well. Most places we go to have healthier choices but I find myself deciding that I deserve a burger instead of a salad because of all my hard work... However, this is undoing all my hard work so I need to come up with a way of training my mind to make better choices. Eating out is a treat. I need to think of the salads as a treat too. Often they come with ingredients that we don’t have at home... and someone else is making it and chopping the veggies so they look fabulous. So from now on, I deserve a delicious salad with awesome ingredients and tasty dressings, on the side of course.
It is my choice to get healthy and in most things I am doing so well – I just have to work on that inner voice that tells me everything will be OK and rebelling once in a while can’t hurt... mainly because I’m doing that more than once in a while!
I need to tell myself, yes, I can have a burger if I want but I don’t want a burger. I want a bowl of the beautiful and healthful salad instead.