My mum... going back to say goodbye.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Unfortunately my mum passed away on Monday evening, UK time. She was in the nursing home, Elvis was playing on her CD player and she slipped away. Her favourite carer was with her.
I've been dealing with the logistics of getting back to England and this has kept me busy and occupied. I leave on Thursday and I think that I will be able to deal with it then. I worked today. It kept my mind busy as otherwise I would have just spent the day in bed which really doesn't help. Last night I went to the gym which did help. I worked hard and it helped. I felt a bit better but still quite empty. I am still feeling empty now I think.
My brother has fallen out with half of the family which will cause issues... but I am hoping that he can grow up a little and realise that they have lost a daughter and a sister... I can't help myself but I try anything to avoid conflict and have had to make a couple of apologies today - because I've been trying to make things easier for him and not for others. We fall out quite often and Mark gets so frustrated - because I always pander to my brother's wishes... which now that this has happened, hopefully I won't need to anymore.
I will be able to see my two BFFs in England which is great. It will only be a short visit but it will be wonderful to see them. I am going for a week, and hopefully Mark and my beautiful girls will be OK here without me. I will miss them. I have not been away from them for this long before. Hopefully I will be able to talk to them on skype while I'm away.
Diet wise - not great. I'm feeling a little off colour. Mostly I've been OK but we are having chinese tonight as a special treat. Mark is the instigator as usual but he doesn't cook and I can't face it... so it is what it is. I will get on with things once my head is straight again.
I want to thank all my spark friends and those people who have posted kind thoughts - it really does reinforce to me how powerful this entire team of people is and how strong we all are. Thanks to you all...