Is Failure An Option?
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
I've recently returned to being active here on SP after a summer of just popping in on ocassion due to a number of things - it started with computer problems and then life simply got way too busy, or so I thought at least. Being without a computer for several weeks and forced to be off-line was a mixed blessing. I accomplished a lot of "real-life" stuff that I'd been neglecting (yep, things like cleaning my house, lol) and spent a lot more time outdoors. I read a lot more books than I usually do, and spent more time with my husband. It was good for me in so many ways. But of course, there was a downside...I wasn't logging in here and staying accountable and I'd had to drop out of the team challenges that were helping me to stay on track with my eating and exercise. I did okay for the first month or so, but then I started eating more, or at least not being as careful of WHAT I ate. I eventually stopped walking as often and as far. And the pounds very slowly started to re-appear. Thankfully, the ONE habit I'm fanatical about is weighing myself every morning and I quickly realized I had some serious choices to make.
Did I really want to lose the rest of the weight I'd vowed to get rid of - or was I going to just go back to the way I'd lived my life for years and years - eating whatever I'd wanted and being happy to say "my weight doesn't matter" or "my husband loves me no matter what" or "God looks at the inside, not at my weight"?? Did I mean what I said when I picked my user name here of "neverornow"? Was I ready to just give up and be obese the rest of my life, taking my chances on becoming diabetic, having heart problems, and so on? Did I WANT to be thin and fit or NOT??
I turned 62 this week and it truly is a matter of now or never, just as it was when I joined SP not quite a year ago. I've spent too much of my life just "going with the flow", trying to please others, not taking care of my own needs.
I DO need to balance my time here at SP with other things that also matter, but that's a struggle we all face at one time or another, isn't it? If there's one thing I've learned the past few months, it's that being active here on SP is important to my physical and mental well-being. And it IS a priority because if I don't take care of ME, I won't be of much good to anyone else, either. Thankfully, my husband is very supportive of my weightloss and fitness efforts.
Failure is NOT an option, and it never will be again. I've lost over 50 lbs and I feel better than I have in years and I know that I'll feel even healthier after I lose another 35 or so.
I feel like I've come home. :)