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Is Failure An Option?

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

I've recently returned to being active here on SP after a summer of just popping in on ocassion due to a number of things - it started with computer problems and then life simply got way too busy, or so I thought at least. Being without a computer for several weeks and forced to be off-line was a mixed blessing. I accomplished a lot of "real-life" stuff that I'd been neglecting (yep, things like cleaning my house, lol) and spent a lot more time outdoors. I read a lot more books than I usually do, and spent more time with my husband. It was good for me in so many ways. But of course, there was a downside...I wasn't logging in here and staying accountable and I'd had to drop out of the team challenges that were helping me to stay on track with my eating and exercise. I did okay for the first month or so, but then I started eating more, or at least not being as careful of WHAT I ate. I eventually stopped walking as often and as far. And the pounds very slowly started to re-appear. Thankfully, the ONE habit I'm fanatical about is weighing myself every morning and I quickly realized I had some serious choices to make.

Did I really want to lose the rest of the weight I'd vowed to get rid of - or was I going to just go back to the way I'd lived my life for years and years - eating whatever I'd wanted and being happy to say "my weight doesn't matter" or "my husband loves me no matter what" or "God looks at the inside, not at my weight"?? Did I mean what I said when I picked my user name here of "neverornow"? Was I ready to just give up and be obese the rest of my life, taking my chances on becoming diabetic, having heart problems, and so on? Did I WANT to be thin and fit or NOT??

I turned 62 this week and it truly is a matter of now or never, just as it was when I joined SP not quite a year ago. I've spent too much of my life just "going with the flow", trying to please others, not taking care of my own needs.

I DO need to balance my time here at SP with other things that also matter, but that's a struggle we all face at one time or another, isn't it? If there's one thing I've learned the past few months, it's that being active here on SP is important to my physical and mental well-being. And it IS a priority because if I don't take care of ME, I won't be of much good to anyone else, either. Thankfully, my husband is very supportive of my weightloss and fitness efforts.

Failure is NOT an option, and it never will be again. I've lost over 50 lbs and I feel better than I have in years and I know that I'll feel even healthier after I lose another 35 or so.

I feel like I've come home. :)

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    Very good blog! We do have to find the right balance between Sparktime and Real Life! Both are important and it is a struggle some times to make ourselves a priority! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3515 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6427585
    THAT is wonderful! I HOPE you'll be back with the Clovers for WINTER! Shall I remind you? emoticon
    3515 days ago
    I have a friend who has shown interest in Spark and even said she will sign up but....knowing her pace and all she is involved in I wonder whether she would be able to take the TIME (yes, you're right, it's time well spent because if we neglect our health others will end up taking care of us) to track, plan meals etc. I know she can do that in other areas of her life. I'm not pushing at all, just trying to be a friend and let her see how Spark is helping me become the person God meant me to be. emoticon back !!
    3518 days ago
  • SAL1512
    Because you know how much better your life is after loosing weight.
    Welcome back!
    3519 days ago
    You can always come back home! emoticon
    3522 days ago
    good to see you back! emoticon
    3526 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10018622
    WooHoo! We are so glad to see you back. You and I appear to be making very similar commitments. emoticon emoticon
    3527 days ago
  • GODSCHILD2_2011

    I'm so glad that you have a rekindled fire about getting back on this health lifestyle journey. I totally understand you when you talk about being on SP a lot, sometimes I tend to do the very same thing which causes me also to neglect other “real-life" things.

    Failure is NOT an option ~ WELCOME BACK!!!

    3527 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/13/2011 5:32:48 PM
    Fantastic entry! Thinking about quitting can be alluring, but you've got it right - failure isn't an option. This is about improving your life for you = and you're well on your way!
    3527 days ago
    Welcome back, my friend!!! You're gonna get there now!!! I just know it!!! B/c emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3527 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/13/2011 4:52:46 PM
    Glad you are back. You made a great choice!!
    3527 days ago
    Welcome back!, You made a great choice, I hope you reach your goals, good luck!

    3527 days ago
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