One Year and 53 lbs....
Friday, October 21, 2011
Today marks my one-year anniversary here on SP and I’m thrilled that during that year I’ve gone from 230 lbs to 177! I feel healthier than I have in years. I’ve gotten my blood glucose reading under control without the aid of drugs (I was pre-diabetic) and have been able to get completely free of some of the meds I was taking for other reasons. I’ve learned the power of prayer in the weight loss and fitness area of my life, and of placing my choices in God’s hand and listening for His guidance through His word and oftentimes, through the words and wisdom of Spark People’s gurus and my wonderful Spark Friends. So many changes and so much progress and I’m excited about that. I’m eternally grateful to SP and all the resources available here.
At the same time, I’m feeling rather discouraged because I seem to have lost my motivation. I’m still exercising almost daily and that’s a plus, but lately I’m having a difficult time dealing with food. I did so well for so long and I’m not sure why the struggle now, but whatever the reason, I am having a tough time with it. Food has always been a huge part of life, as far back as my memory will take me, during both good times and bad. It’s been a comfort and a friend, a way to please others, a way to appease the demons I’ve dealt with. I know those things and thought I’d dealt with them and gotten past them, but here I am, struggling with them all over again.
I’ve come far enough that I’m not about to give up and give in to this. I know for sure that I don’t want to go back to where I was before SP – that isn’t an option. That only leaves one choice, and that is to work my way thru this and get to the other side. I know what I want and I know what it will take to get there. So why am I having such a hard time staying on track? Am I afraid of failing? Or is my fear of succeeding? Am I scared of where success might take me? Or that I really can’t do this? God knows I’ve tried countless times before and failed!
It's time to refocus and begin anew. By the grace of God, and in His power, that’s what I will do. I’m over halfway to my goal and I plan to celebrate my second SP anniversary at a normal, healthy weight!
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. God has promised that, and I believe it.
I’m in this for the long haul…year one was just the beginning. Onward now to year 2 of the journey!