A quote I needed...
"First, forget not to be patient with yourself.
I want to tell you something that I hope you will take in the right way: God is fully aware that you and I are not perfect.
Let me add: God is also fully aware that the people you think are perfect are not.
And yet we spend so much time and energy comparing ourselves to others—usually comparing our weaknesses to their strengths... As a result, we never celebrate our good efforts because they seem to be less than what someone else does.
Dear sisters, many of you are endlessly compassionate and patient with the weaknesses of others. Please remember also to be compassionate and patient with yourself."
DIETER F. UCHTDORF
I've listened to this talk over and over, and yet I didn't fully understand the meaning of this part, for me, until last night. After my tantrum, I was looking over my blogs, and realized how "impatient" I can be with myself. I try to uplift others on Spark People, and feel bad when others are having a hard time - looking for a way to help them feel better about themselves. Yet I punish myself when the situation's turned around.
I need to stop this. I think this is the key to my "self sabotage". I'm not perfect in my day, so I punish myself by eating what I know isn't good for me. It is not ok. And it is stopping NOW. I need to start being kind to me, celebrating what I do RIGHT. I need to pay attention to my feelings throughout the day, and help myself through the rough spots instead of tearing myself down.
It starts today!
And if anyone else feels as I do, I encourage you to listen to this talk as well. You don't have to be religious or a member of the same faith to learn from it. He is a wonderful speaker with a wonderful message. I hope to take it to heart!
Now, everyone, go do something nice for yourself today. You deserve it!!