I realize now that everyone is different.
I've had to step back and take a long look at myself over the last couple of weeks. I still haven't stepped on the scale, but not because I didn't want to. Some days it almost killed me!! But I've learned a lot in my "non-weighing" mode.
First, I'm no longer focused on the number. Whether it be calories or weight or size. I was so wrapped up in seeing all three numbers go down, that I wasn't enjoying the journey. It has especially hit home the last couple of days. I was hungry, and I wanted an orange really bad. But, it wasn't in my calorie plan for the day, so I walked away. Hello! I wanted an ORANGE and I was HUNGRY! All of a sudden I realized that what I was doing wasn't good for ME. I should be able to have an orange, and eat when my body tells me to.
Second, I had so much yard work to do this week, but I couldn't get to it. I was doing my exercises, which was a good thing, but I always feel frustrated after because I am not seeing results fast enough. I felt like I wasted my time. I know, negative thinking, right? I now realize that if I split up my time and do things around the house that cause me to break a sweat and work hard, and then do some exercising here and there to stay toned and keep my heart and lungs strong, I feel like I've completed something AND I'm healthier for it! I'm happy as I look around and see what I've accomplished, and I feel great!
Last, I am no longer obsessed with the process. I'm living life again. I've realized that the only time I lost weight and kept it off was when I was making little changes in my life and seeing a gradual loss. It was nice losing some weight, but it didn't rule my world. When I did become obsessed with it and started picking myself apart for not looking how I thought I should, THAT is when my weight started fluctuating. And when life threw me a few trials and emotional hardships, I gained back 30 pounds of what I had lost. No more. I'm back to making lifestyle changes here and there, and let the weight come off when it's ready to.
So, I'm different. I have needed to find some balance in my life, and getting rid of the scale has done that for me. I know that the scale, calorie counting, etc.. can work wonders for lots of people, just not me. I will still focus on eating healthy and making healthy choices, I will watch my portions, I will not binge, I will check my weight every few months to make sure my health is on track, and I will up my activity throughout the day - like choosing to walk or bike instead of hopping in the car.
These are things I know I will do. Why? Because they are becoming a part of my life. A life I am now learning to love!