Why am I doing this?

Thursday, November 01, 2012

I've been thinking a lot lately about why I am doing this. Why am I trying to lose weight? Why am I cutting back on foods that are not good for me and adding more that are? Why am I upping my exercise time?

Why? To get healthy and feel better about myself. To have more energy and enjoy life more. Right?

So, why is it that when I give myself a day off I treat myself so badly? I eat every bad food I can get my hands on. And I don't exercise. At all. Ziltch!

Yes, I have been working hard. I've joined a Health Challenge for the holidays, and have been doing awesome six days of the week. Exercising 1 1/2 hours a day, eating healthy, staying away from junk. But on that seventh day that no longer counts towards my score... let's just say it is scary.

And, this week we have off until the November challenge, which starts on Monday.

Let's just say, it hasn't been a good week.

Have I learned anything? Don't I realize that the garbage I am putting into my body is NOT good for me? It makes me feel yucky, and most of it doesn't really taste that good. Don't I realize that the fruits and veggies just sitting in my fridge could be helping my body and mind become stronger, and my life happier? Don't I realize that the strength I've been gaining in my muscles, heart, and lungs is good for me, and will help me live a longer, more fulfilling life?

Then why am I not doing it?

If I am doing this to change my life, doesn't that mean there are no "days off"? This is my life! Being healthy is really what I want. Not some high score in a health challenge. Not the junk food that I store up until the day I can eat it, guilt free. Not a body that doesn't work right because I am not taking care of it.


And the only way I am going to get it, and keep it, is to make a change. A permanent change. Not one that lasts six days out of seven, or four weeks out of five. But EVERY day.

And so, now that I've had this little pep talk with myself and realized why I am in this, I am going to do it. Not for a challenge. Not for a size eight pants. Not for my husband. I am doing this for my life. I want a long, healthy one. And the only way I'm going to get it is to CHANGE. Change for the REST of my life.

That change begins... now.
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    emoticon Just think of all the good food you could be eating. emoticon for saying it like it is. Every day is a challenge and you are the only one that really can choose what goes in the mouth. We all ask ourselves these very questions on a regular basis. Why do I do what I do? It is obvious from your post that emoticon
    3111 days ago
    Can you imagine a job without even one day off? Ever? Can you picture the life of a mother of a newborn who would never sleep, not even for an hour? Can you imagine a school day with no breaks at all? Just some examples which prove that everyone, in every aspect of their lives need a break once in a while. But when it comes to weight loss, this break needs to be made according to our own unique personality. Maybe a whole-day break is catastrophic for you. Maybe you need to schedule it more rarely than every week. Or you need to only have a cheat-meal instead of a whole day. Or try a small treat every three or four days. You'll find out what works for you. But don't expect yourself to live without a break. If you ask people who've successfully lost weight, I'm sure most of them will answer that they actually planned their cheat days and enjoyed them! I'm one of them!
    Don't get disappointed. You're doing great from my point of view. You're just human.
    Find out what works for you.
    3117 days ago
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    Wow I hear ya I reset the change button for the rest of my life too I'd like to save this like you do a recipe, go back reread it pep talk a little chili pepper to keep ya goin, stir in a little for the right reason, Beat off the blues and pour in the pan of happiness. shake well, bake in sun sun while you're out walking Yep I think you have a winner. emoticon
    3117 days ago
    I've never been a fan of the cheat-day concept, but I did try it for a short time a while ago and it didn't work well for me.

    I find that a small daily treat is best - eating good 90-95 percent of the time and enjoying a small indulgence. It keeps me from feeling guilty and it keeps me from going nuts because I miss the foods I used to eat.

    The trick sometimes I think is to find a version of a food you like that's not quite as bad as what you might have had before. Fewer calories but the same sense of indulgence.

    I think that works, at least it does for me. emoticon emoticon
    3117 days ago
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