Why am I doing this?
Thursday, November 01, 2012
I've been thinking a lot lately about why I am doing this. Why am I trying to lose weight? Why am I cutting back on foods that are not good for me and adding more that are? Why am I upping my exercise time?
Why? To get healthy and feel better about myself. To have more energy and enjoy life more. Right?
So, why is it that when I give myself a day off I treat myself so badly? I eat every bad food I can get my hands on. And I don't exercise. At all. Ziltch!
Yes, I have been working hard. I've joined a Health Challenge for the holidays, and have been doing awesome six days of the week. Exercising 1 1/2 hours a day, eating healthy, staying away from junk. But on that seventh day that no longer counts towards my score... let's just say it is scary.
And, this week we have off until the November challenge, which starts on Monday.
Let's just say, it hasn't been a good week.
Have I learned anything? Don't I realize that the garbage I am putting into my body is NOT good for me? It makes me feel yucky, and most of it doesn't really taste that good. Don't I realize that the fruits and veggies just sitting in my fridge could be helping my body and mind become stronger, and my life happier? Don't I realize that the strength I've been gaining in my muscles, heart, and lungs is good for me, and will help me live a longer, more fulfilling life?
Then why am I not doing it?
If I am doing this to change my life, doesn't that mean there are no "days off"? This is my life! Being healthy is really what I want. Not some high score in a health challenge. Not the junk food that I store up until the day I can eat it, guilt free. Not a body that doesn't work right because I am not taking care of it.
I WANT A HEALTHY LIFE!!!
And the only way I am going to get it, and keep it, is to make a change. A permanent change. Not one that lasts six days out of seven, or four weeks out of five. But EVERY day.
And so, now that I've had this little pep talk with myself and realized why I am in this, I am going to do it. Not for a challenge. Not for a size eight pants. Not for my husband. I am doing this for my life. I want a long, healthy one. And the only way I'm going to get it is to CHANGE. Change for the REST of my life.
That change begins... now.