Fantastic Christmas - terrible weigh in
Friday, December 28, 2012
This is mostly a recap blog for 2012. Sometime in the next few days I will post goals for the new year. This is going to be a whiny, self-pitying, pathetic blog so feel free to skip it. Please keep in mind that there will be a more positive one following within the week that includes a real plan for the new year.
Basically this last year has been crap and I've handled it badly. I was maintaining (as opposed to gaining) until September when I dropped my Curves membership. I thought I could figure out a new workout routine on my own, but I never really managed it. Plus I've been eating like crap too. Too much, and the wrong stuff. I'm pretty pissed at myself to be honest. I'm especially disgusted since earlier today I stumbled across some pictures of myself 20 pounds lighter and I was fat then. I don't even want to think about what other people see me as now. Clearly my mirror can't be trusted.
I've been burying my emotions with food, and that's pissing me off but I can't seem to stop. I can't even blame the holidays. Sure I made a bunch of cookies, lasagna, and a ham dinner but if I had just stayed with that I would've been ok. The real problem is all the other crap I've been shoving in my pie hole. Some of it I don't even really like, so what the hell is my problem?
I weighed the day after Christmas and I was officially 100 pounds over my high school weight. Not a landmark I was hoping to hit. Pretty soon I'm going to have to call in to work because the only thing that fits is my bed (points for those who get the reference).
Bad stuff has happened over the last couple of years, but food won't fix it. Time to get my sh*t together.
On the up side - I had a great Christmas. I got everything I asked for, and some stuff I didn't ask for. I sit typing this on a new laptop from my folks (I guess my dad got tired of fixing my old one), and very happy with the goodies I received all around. My folks came down and we had a great several days together. I'm so grateful for my family, and sometimes I need to work harder to remember how lucky I am. The best gift of all this year was that hubby quit smoking. Today is his 2 week mark and I'm so proud of him. He's never made it past day one before so this is huge. Prayers/good thoughts for his continued success would be appreciated.