Ohhh's getting real!

Monday, January 14, 2013

So, with some prodding from a fellow sparker, (Ang emoticon ) I'm going to start blogging's time to get real.

At 41, I've hit my all-time highest weight. I'm 293. I'm down a pound from last week, which was my highest weight ever. I'm in very poor health. My life style has been very sedentary. My self-esteem is at its lowest.

Today has been 13 years since I lost my mom. She was overweight, had poor health, and a sedentary lifestyle. She was only 55.

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Today I had an epiphany. emoticon So simple, yet took me years to realize....I don't have to live the life my mom lived.

Although she was one of the most intelligent people I ever knew, she was also one of the most self-destructive. She was a recovering alcoholic, a long-time smoker and she didn't exercise. She had diabetes and OA. She passed from a stroke.

Today I started physical therapy for my Sciatica. I also made an appointment with the eye doctor. I have an appointment with my primary doctor in a couple weeks, and I just saw my Rheumatologist last week. I still need to see a dentist. Although I have depression, I don't think that it's to the point where I need to see a therapist. I think exercising, keeping in contact with my support system and losing weight will help in that area of my life.

Today I decided not to live the life my mom did. I want a healthier life. I want a longer life. I want a more active life. And it starts now!

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    Six weeks later --- How's your new life going?

    I didn't exactly make a New Year's resolution, but on 2 Jan I started a new streak of working out to a Leslie Sansone WATP DVD. I now have 60 days in. I did at least 10 minutes a day in January, at least 15 minutes in February, and I'm doing at least 20 minutes in March. So far, so good, although the 20 minute minimum is getting to be a real pain (in the upper back -- go figure!).

    I hope things are going well with you!

    2988 days ago
    You can do it my friend one baby step at a time! Any little bit of excercise helps! Ive been no Angel my self but im getting better at the goals! I have totake care of my self so i can take care of ME.. because i have no one to help me! You do your best my friend and im there for you and you me, Lets get going, BONNIE Hugs and Blesings! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3018 days ago
    A great break through indeed! emoticon
    3034 days ago
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    Great for you! emoticon
    3034 days ago
    I think you have a good idea what you need to do and are starting to take the steps you need to achieve those goals. Take one day at a time, and make lots of small goals that you can easily accomplish. Blogging is very therapeutic and you will find tons of support here (SP) from people that share lots of the same issues. I went to the Dr. yesterday so that I could start taking the right steps toward my health. Take care and be strong!!! emoticon emoticon
    3035 days ago
    Yay! Thanks for sharing all of this. Please know that you are not alone. I am thinking of you and sending you lots of emoticon !
    3035 days ago
    emoticon Great for you!!!!
    3035 days ago
    Hooray for you!

    3035 days ago
    I feel terrible knowing you are having a rough patch in your life.
    Blogging will help sort out you feelings...such as your fear of your mortality. I been feeling it too. Especially with my b-day just passing. I am now 46yo and I am not where I want to be physically, financially or career wise.., the list goes on and on.
    I get a full check up this January 23. I do need to make a eye doctor appointment too.

    Good that you have a supportive family and nieces and nephews that spend time with you. I get very lonely at times, especially without my brother.

    You can do this!
    3035 days ago
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