Every Day is a New day! And a New Opportunity!
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Yesterday was a good day! I felt good. I really accomplished a lot on my job. I got the laundry all caught up (no small feat all by itself!), made blonde brownies (and ate only one for dessert last night!!), processed homemade Orange Sorbet in the ice cream maker, cooked a good healthy dinner for my family AND took care of ME all day long!
Really! I paid attention to what I ate. I got up from the desk every 15 minutes, if only for 30 seconds to stretch and then back to work. I got outside even though the weather was drippy. I went to Pilates class even though I was tired at the end of the day and could have easily talked myself out of it. And I stayed the course eating in moderation on all things. A great salad, a small scoop of Butter Pecan ice cream (to go with the brownie, of course!), baked chicken for dinner, non-fat yogurt and fruit for breakfast, even yoga at 6:00 AM with the gal on TV!! I put ME first and managed to take care of everyone else and everything else.
Revelation - I don't have to put myself last! I can pay attention to what is good for me while meeting my family's needs. I can do what is good for me while doing a great job on my job. I can focus on what is good for me without losing sight of what's necessary to keep the rest of my life purring along. I don't have to put myself last! That's new. I have almost always put myself last. I can't do ....... because ........ needs ........ - Me Last! Except in the case of true emergency there is NO REASON why I should put myself last. None - Zero - Zilch! I deserve better and frankly, my family and my job will be better off if I'm happier, healthier, more energetic and taking care of ME.
It may take some time to wrap my head around this. I've never put me first. I'm wired the exact opposite way - Programmed by my dear Mother who always put her family first too often to her own detriment. But she too has learned that she must put herself first if she is to be healthy and strong for herself and for the family. So - I am envisioning a rewiring process going on in my brain (mental image of tiny little electricians running around my brain!!!
) and I've requested a nice bright light bulb so that I can see what I'm doing while I keep taking care of ME.