Weight Loss Begins In The Heart
Tuesday, June 04, 2013
I committed myself to Weight Watcher on January 30, 2011. My starting weight was 253lbs. When I started the program, I was actually in pretty good shape. I had a trainer that pushed me and I was doing exercises that I had never been able to perform. Unfortunately, I was a little arrogant. I thought to myself that if I did the “ABC’s” of the program that I would loose the weight in no time. In retrospect, I didn’t have a true perspective of what I really looked like to my peers. I work in the Cosmetic and Beauty Industry, so I know that most people have no clue as to how they really look to their friends and family. In my perspective this reality check is the best weight loss 101 motivator and should be emphasized. The most life changing moment was sadly at fifty-one years of age I didn’t even know who I was. I believe weight loss begins in the heart.
As of two weeks ago, I weighed in at 235. Yes, it is a success, but I have been in and out of the program. I could give you my entire sob story, but I won’t. What’s the point? I have kept my online membership but my diligence has lacked. Over two years into this program I have learned a lot about myself. Firstly, I look nothing like I imagine. I definitely have a better perspective on that area. Along the way, I have learned to stop mourning what will never be. I know that ship has sailed. The beautiful part is there is a better journey waiting for me. Injuries and illness have sidetracked my journey, but I stay hopeful. I will be exercising again in a new way and soon. I have a lack of commitment to my goals for the long haul. I am that way with everything. I get tired of TV series. It doesn’t take long before I am bored. I am an all or nothing gal. I start the week well, but I know toward the end of the week, I better have those extra points handy. I get tired of work, life and the mundane, so I eat to soothe myself. For a long time I use to say if only I had this or the other my life would be better. Guess what? I t wouldn’t be better because my quirky mindset is still a part of the equation. There is nothing wrong with quirkiness if you don’t self-destruct. We also have to know how to deal with who you are. I think its called coping mechanisms. Sometimes I feel like Moses. I am only getting to see the promise land but not getting to enter it. In my heart of hearts, the reality is that the promise land is waiting for me. I will enter it because it’s part of that better journey I have started. This time I will be on that ship when it sails.