Okay, I know 5 pounds isn't much when compared to the (40 total) I need to lose. BUT, I feel elated anyway! I mean, 5 pounds! That's a whole bag of sugar less that I am carting around on my body each day! Five pounds less weight on my aching knees and ankles!
I haven't seen this weight in over 3 months!
My weight loss kept going up/down/up/down, and I was feeling really disheartened about it. However, I think my pregnancy hormones from the miscarriage have lowered enough to allow me to lose weight. I had my blood drawn again yesterday, so I won't know for sure if my hormone levels are normal until they let me know the results.
My situation was literally making me depressed and disgusted with myself. I mean, I gained weight since high school (Class of 2003), and I added some pregnancy weight onto that. NOW, I feel like I'm on a marathon to lose weight to make myself in shape for the next possible pregnancy (I could be cleared to conceive by October!) Bow-Chica-Wow-Wow... Watch out Hubby! Therefore, I need to get my body into the best shape I can by that point. Which essentially means "killing myself" (overexaggerating...but seriously...I hate eating healthy and working out).
I need 1,900 calories to Maintain my weight, and I don't want to maintain it. I want to LOSE IT. BEFORE my range was 1,200 - 1,500 calories, and sometimes overreaching my mark by hitting 1,800 calories. NOW I'm eating 1,000-1,200 calories per day. Sometimes over-reaching the mark by 1,500 calories. I'm also working out. BEFORE I was working out 10-30 minutes, well, needless to say, that wasn't cutting it. NOW I'm using the elliptical for 30-45 minutes, walking 15 minutes, and lifting weights for about 10 minutes *Almost every day, unless my body is crying out for a break.
My biggest complaints:
Feeling Hungry (Trying to eat more "filling" foods and foods that are more dense/water filled to keep that sense of hunger at bay)
Achy Knees/Ankles (I have flat feet, so it puts a lot of pressure on these areas. However, in the long run less weight on them will be better)