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Sunday, August 18, 2013

emoticon Hi friends,
Thank you so much for stopping by.
I am having a lot of trouble staying on track. emoticon
When I first started this weight loss journey back in Feb. of 2009... I was
emoticon STRONG, there was nothing that could get me off track... I remember going to a buffet, but I would NOT eat anything at the buffet (everything was fried) !!! I wanted something baked, I wanted a salad, and I got just what I wanted! emoticon I did not overeat.
That year I lost almost 100 lbs.... Thinking back this just makes me cry like a baby...
Because I can't seem to get back there...I don't know where my strength, and determination went.
Before... I would ALWAYS faithfully track anything that went into my mouth, now working, and being a single Mom its like where is the time?

Where is my will power? When everything crumbled with my family its like my will power crumbled along with it. emoticon
The weekend comes along, and ALL I can think about is FOOD emoticon emoticon emoticon
Food excites me, and I HATE this!!!

I remember in the beginning I seen low fat Twinkies and I would NOT buy them because I knew I would eat the WHOLE BOX.
I know some people say NO food does not have power over you, you CAN only eat ONE...

I'm sorry, until you are tortured with this issue then you have NO clue as to what we go through... I was allowing myself to have one cheat meal on the weekend, ONLY if I did well throughout the week.
And I believe this could be good IF you don't abuse it... Like I have. My weekends have turned into food binges... Friday comes and I don't stop eating until Sunday night. emoticon

I dream of the day when I can eat just one piece of birthday cake without later shoving food down my throat when no one is looking.
That is what I do...I have to be honest... I will eat like a mad woman when NO ONE is looking.

I CAN do ALL things through Christ... but God is NOT going to do this for me... There is something he wants me to learn through this...Something that He wants me to use to help others.I must seek Him more on this subject... So many times Prayer about overeating gets left on the back burner because of our busy lives, but this HAS to change... In MY life this MUST change...
So I'm asking ALL Prayer Warriors to Pray for me... emoticon And if YOU need Prayer, PLEASE SparkMail me...I promise to Pray for YOU!!!

We all need each other... Thank you for stopping by. Know I love you emoticon
God Bless~Christina
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    Hello DAKOTASMOMMY_07 !!! I read your post in the panic room. This is what I've written for you.

    Logging food can seem really daunting. Here's what I recommend to new members. Don't try to do everything at once. Start with some simple changes first so that you don't end up frustrated.

    If logging food for the entire day seems like a lot, then start by logging one meal a day. start with breakfast. Each day for one week, you log breakfast. Next week, you add lunch. So, for that entire week, you log only breakfast and lunch. The week after, you log breakfast, lunch and your snack. one more week, you add dinner. In one month, you've learned to log all your food choices.

    That's something simple you can do to slowly ease yourself into routine. Everything seems overwhelming right now because you're trying to do everything. That's no good. This is why SP recommends starting with some simple changes so that you're not overwhelmed. You want to make this a habit, but that really does take time.

    So, why not give it a try ? And if you find logging in the food diary too much, then write your food choices in a notebook. that's another way to log your food choices.

    Remember, you're trying to change habits learned over a life time. That's not going to happen overnight, a week, a month or even a year. Change takes time, thus the need to be patient with yourself and your body.

    As I tell everyone... Be kind to yourself as you would to others.

    2825 days ago
    Hey Christina~
    I am praying for you, my friend. And don't beat yourself up. You know you can do this, I know you can do this, I believe in you! Staying with the program can be very overwhelming when life is challenging... Maybe you need to face each day, one day at a time. It might be easier to commit to one day at a time! I will be here to encourage you! Hang in there!
    God bless,
    2825 days ago
  • LEAKAY59
    Ah, dear Christina, Warrior Supreme! You have been through the wringer the past few years. You know it, I know it, but most of all, God knows it. You need to determine the WHY of your overeating. You know in your mind it is bad for you, it can jeopardize your future with Dakota, it can KILL you in time, so why are you doing it? Please Please PLEASE join the Emotional Eaters team . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/
    groups_individual.asp?gid=439 and go through the steps. They will help you figure out what your triggers are, why you are overeating, and help you take the reins again, to be able to control what goes into your mouth. Because you are the ONLY ONE who can control that. God will help you, but He won't do it for you! You ARE strong, somewhere underneath the fear and the humiliation and the feelings of worthlessness that come when a marriage ends. I have been there, I know how it hurts and how comfort foods can be all that get you through the day. But it has to stop. And I know that emoticon because you've done it before. God will be your strength, but YOU have to do the work. Love you, SparkSister!
    2825 days ago
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