Happily Sore, Goals, and Stigmas

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

The 3x Challenge I did yesterday really kicked my butt. emoticon I'm not sure if I'll be able to do the legs portion of it tomorrow. My thighs and butt are so sore (in a good way) that I am having a hard time going up and down the stairs in our house! At least I know the workout actually DOES something! I just need to listen to my body, take my time, and build up my endurance slowly with each area.

Due to my legs being so sore, I wasn't able to do too much as far as cardio was concerned today. However, I walked 10 minutes early this morning on the treadmill (3.3mph at 5% incline). Then later this evening I took the dog on a little over a mile walk around our neighborhood. emoticon Afterwards, I came inside and hopped on the treadmill again for another 20 minutes.

emoticon I'm trying to up my step count each day (I wear a pedometer). My goal is 5,000 steps per day, which is a low goal. Most days I well exceed it, however, some days, usually MONDAYS, I go under it. Once I have a full week of exceeding the 5,000 step goal, then I will raise my goal to 5,500 steps. Baby steps...Baby goals... I want to set myself up to succeed rather than overwhelm myself and make my goals unattainable. Eventually I want to work up to 10,000 steps per day, however, that goal would be overwhelming at this point. Like I said, I need baby steps to work my way there. For example, today I have around 8,500 steps.

I especially have to keep myself active and focused starting around this time of year. I suffer from clinical depression (such a stigma associated with it - so I normally don't disclose it to anyone). For example, think about how many people you know who will readily tell you and BRAG about the fact that they take Blood Pressure medicine. There are MORE people prescribed anti-depressants, yet, you never hear anyone talk or brag about mental health issues. I've always explained to people, my depression isn't simply an "event" which makes me upset. Granted most people will experience a depressive episode at least once in their life due to life circumstances or stress. However, I have a chemical imbalance (it runs on the female side of my family) where my body doesn't create enough serotonin or norepinephrine. I need to take medicine to keep my body balanced just like an individual who has diabetes needs to take insulin. There shouldn't be any stigma about it. It only helps place me on a more level playing field with everyone else (I think sometimes people assume the medicine will just make you giddly happy - not the case).

However, my depression is harder to manage as summer changes to fall and winter. The lack of sunlight affects my chemical levels, so I have to keep a close eye on my moods. I have to remind myself to be more patient, less quick to anger, and to not take things to heart so much. Keeping social and exercising helps, as well as my family being diligent in watching when I start to slip and helping me when I do. I naturally want to sleep more during this time of year, so I have to fight myself to get out of bed. Otherwise, I will literally drag myself into a hole where I will sleep for hours on end - making my depression worse- even though it is what I crave. Depression also causes cravings for sugar and carbohydrates, which is also an extra thing I have to watch.

As I have grown older, I have learned better ways to manage my depression. I am sure it will continue to improve as I get older. It is just a part of myself, which I unfortunately can't separate from myself, so I have to make the best of the situation and take it in stride.
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    I never thought about taking increased vitamin D supplements. Although I have thought about a "sun lamp", but those can be quit pricey. It would be nice to have on while I read and do other things, which would provide myself with more "hours" of sunlight during the winter.

    It is nice for someone who comments on my blog so frequently to understand EXACTLY what I'm talking about with the depression issues. I know I have such a hard time getting my husband to "get it". He tries to understand, but it isn't the same. It'll be nice to have a buddy to lean on and motivate.
    2788 days ago
    Ok, so I read this last night and again today. Wanted to comment when it would count towards my points, but I went over that today anyways...

    So, I know what you mean regarding the depression. I too am depressed and not usually one to disclose that information to just anyone, but we are a community here to help one another. Again, I also suffer from the seasonal affective disorder of winter time blues. I always take extra vitamin D at this time of year and my husband bought me a sunrise alarm clock. I only use the light from it because the noise is awful!

    Learning to overcome the desire to eat eat eat at this time of year is super challenging, but I think this year, we can really help each other out. Fitness and activity will help a lot for both of us. I plan to walk my kids to school everyday that it is not super cold here even if they don't like it. Besides, we wouldn't find anywhere to park anyways!

    Glad to hear that you are feeling the challenge work! Some days, it feels better than others... give it a couple more rounds and you won't hurt near as much!

    2788 days ago
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