Back to Square One All Over Again Cause I Refuse To Quit
Tuesday, January 07, 2014
I has been a year since I blog for the last time. Life got very hectic, and finally I got a job, as a teacher and I got very involved in it..., maybe to be able to not look at the mess my life was.
Yesterday, my mom has her usually, annually Epiphany party for the kids, as part of the Christmas Holidays in my country. Nothing has changed. She calls me names for being overweight. She told me that I look as a big truck tire in front of everybody, although I have not gain a pound in the last year, nor loose one either. a It hurts me a lot, still hurts a lot and I do not understand what I am looking for.
My sister in law brought presents for all my brothers and sister, but not for me. My sister brought me 2 used things as her presents and I keep asking me what is wrong with me that people keeps mistreating me?
After that I did not overeat, but I could not eat dinner either. Some how I felt full. That scares me cause I am concern that the anorexic feelings are coming back and although I will be able to loose a lot of this extra weight, that is not healthy either.
This morning I connected with my support Spark team and I am trying to go back to square one and start all over again, once and for all. Can you, Sparkling friends, help me and support me through these hard and painful times?
I am very sorry to be dumping all this crab on you, but I really need to ease all the pain and I really need the support, so thank you for stopping by, reading my blog and posting back, fro me.