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BLC 26 WEC #7 Strength Challenge-Blog

Monday, November 03, 2014

BLC WEEK 7 Strength Blog Challenge:

#1Blog about a time you exhibited super hero strength (mental or physical) you didn’t know you possessed until you used it. (200 pts Spark Page/100 pts chat)

The first was when I was in high school.. I tried out for the volleyball team even though I was only 5ft 5.5 inches... (every inch makes a difference in volleyball).. and the school i went to was very competitive... I made the team and spent lots of times practicing what I could do well despite height... i ended up being named captain.. and at our first tournament to train officials, I served out two games in an important match... meaning I served all 15 points in a row one game and the other was even stranger... i served the other game 7 points and then no one else on my team scored a point and then i scored the remaining 8... i also made some amazing "digs" meaning when the ball was spiked, i flew through the air and got it before it hit the ground, and then i hit the ground... (could explain my bad knees and spine).. in college i also captained the school team despite being so short...

I do tend to rise to a physical challenge... even still... most recently was proving the doctors wrong about my not being able to improve my back. the prognosis was that it would continue to deteriorate.. i was looking at a wheel chair.. but instead i went from walker, to two canes, to one cane, to just packing two fold up canes in a backpack, for hikes, bike rides, and kayak rides, to just one fold up cane, to not using a cane or walker until last week needing it only for the bathroom adventures..

I was going to also write about superhuman mental/emotional strength... but, i will let that go.. and handle it in the secret identity/mask question.

#2What is your secret identity? What are you hiding? Does wearing the mask allow you to be the person you’ve always dreamed of being? Explain. (200 pts blog/100 chat)

My secret identity is that I was much more wounded emotionally than anyone would ever have known... no one knew at all until after the sudden death of my brother.. and my mother's head on car crash, and my father's life saving surgery, and the program I had built from scratch for students with serious learning difficulties was about to being disbanded... and my brother's children were taken from my life... and... more... all in the space of 6 weeks time... that is when i learned how wounded i had been before this all happened (starting very early in life)...

i hid behind being an overachiever, being the caretaker of anyone in my vicinity, being happy and strong and invincible...people even told me about how i had superhuman powers.. until i wasn't... and then i KNEW something was not right... but i still hid it from the world.. hid it from everyone who knew me... until i could/would not anymore and i just left town... (during every summer vacation... and would return and hide it from every one again..) eventually I did tell strangers anonymously on the internet.. and i told one friend some of it... and years later i told another friend most of it... and within the last two years told one friend from online a different part of it... i am still leaving a lot out...

so, does the mask allow me to be who i dream of being... what i realized just last night... is that this mask is mostly to hide the me I once was.... and i have already taken a lot of steps to remove mask(s) without even being aware of it... so, NO, the mask(s) that i thought so very necessary to hide the pain and how i handled the pain during the years subsequent to my brother's sudden death.. does not allow me to be who I NOW dream of being... but, there are still things i need to share very very carefully with only very trusted few or else it might, in fact, negatively impact my being able to be the person I dream of being...

This blog supports both the dream and the remaining caution and shows willingness to drop some of the mask(s) quite a bit. Thank you for others on my FBI team for "going" first.
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    thanks for sharing love and i think it is great about the volley ball.take care and keep smiling
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