"What could you do with your life if you were ten times bolder?"
Thursday, September 01, 2016
Today marks (roughly) one year since I re-started my journey toward a healthier and happier life for myself. I saw the quote above this morning and it perfectly encapsulates where I am right now.
This time last year I was miserable. My health was terrible. My doctors told me that I was dangerously close to developing diabetes and other health conditions as a result of the excess weight I was carrying around (along with my family history). Emotionally I was depressed and withdrawn. I was floating through life just letting it happen to me.
Exercise has been a lifesaver for me, in more ways than one.
It has improved my health. I've lost a total of 50lb (gained some back due to a recent setback, but we'll stick with the 50 figure because this is my blog and I do what I want, lol!), lowered my resting heartrate, lowered my cholesterol and blood sugar, and lowered my blood pressure.
It has allowed me to reconnect with old friends and make amazing and cherished new ones who share my interests. Those friendships have helped pull me back from the brink of despair and hopelessness so many times I cannot even begin to count.
But most of all, it has allowed me to get my "muchness" back. I had settled into a pattern of just allowing things to happen to me, because I was scared of what might happen if I tried something different. I felt trapped and unhappy and powerless. But then I tried some new stuff - things that pushed my boundaries. Sometimes I failed. But more often, I succeeded. And those successes have been the thing that saved me. I experience a sense of childlike wonder and limitless joy every time I accomplish some new challenge. There is nothing that can compare to the feeling of standing on top of a mountain, winded and shaky, looking down the path and knowing that you got up there under your own power.
I am ten times bolder than I used to be. And one hundred times happier. That's the kind of math I think everyone can get behind.