How am I feeling....I mean doing...
Monday, September 18, 2017
I had a bit of a revelation for myself this weekend.
I have spent a lot of years worrying about how I was feeling. How are you feeling? How is anyone feeling?
You know, I'm feeling what I feel. Sometimes it's good. Most of the time it isn't. I do have some depression issues so most days- I don't "feel" great. I'm depressed. I'm upset with myself. I'm hard on myself. I have high expectations of my life. If I focus on feeling every day- I feel pretty crummy.
But how am I DOING? That is a different story. I'm DOING what I need to do. I'm getting up and going to work even if I don't "feel" like it. I'm handling my life and going to school and managing our finances and caring for my husband and my mother even when I "feel" tired and exhausted and sorry for myself. I'm DOING pretty darn good. So I'm going to cut myself a little slack here.
I may never get to where I bounce of bed and "feel" elated about everything. That's okay. Life goes on no matter how I feel. The way I get through it- is what I DO.