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Getting back on track after maintaining for over 11 years

Friday, January 04, 2019

2018 had allot of new challenges for me. 2017 I had to cut back on my running because of bone spurs on the ball of my right hip. It was hard but I made the adjustment and was doing good. 2018 I had allot of challenges in my life at work, home and with my workouts. Work I had many changes that left me wondering if I was going to have a job based on changes and restructuring. Still stressing me but I have a better handle of where I am and that I still have a job. At home not going into details but I am making some major changes and finding myself. Workouts I have had issues with my right wrist for 3 months now and even had surgery so my weightlifting and running again took a hit. Not weightlifting since it was a fill in for my running miles being cut hurt. Had surgery on my wrist and am now just going to get to lift again.
So I am rebuilding on many fronts and it has me stressed and challenging my motivation. Good thing is I have done this before and I really miss my workouts and all. So just yesterday I started tracking my nutrition and exercise to help motivate myself and give me some numbers to help me gauge where I am at. Life is change and some of the change got away from me or just happened and now I need to focus on getting back to what I can then rethink what I cannot.
I also know that I am good at the physical side of things and that will help my mental side of things. I love working out and challenging myself but with the horrible pain in my wrist it has had me not wanting to do things. Now after surgery I have pain still but I am not hurting it and everyday it feels better. I know if I slowly work back into lifting it will be fine and do as I always have and listen to my body. I also use my elliptical allot now since I could rest my wrist on it and not swing that arm and hurt myself. I still have to be a bit careful with that and it is winter so I am sticking to the elliptical and will run again outside once the weather warms up and I have given my wrist the time it needs. It is a huge mental drain on me not to run since it was my thing for 10 years but I know I will get back to it. Swimming I also miss but now that my incision is pretty well healed up I think I can get back to that as well.
My goal is to get back to my normal workout which is lifting, running/elliptical and finish with swimming. Also mixing core workouts in 3 times a week and maybe get back into spinning.

Mentally I am seeing a therapist and have been since mid 2018 which is something I should have done starting back in 2009 but oh well better late than never. So I know it will take me a long time to get to a place I am ready to handle things on my own again or even make huge life decisions and that is ok. Just understanding that I am not in the place to make that decision and just chill out and let myself adapt and adjust to what I currently am getting over and dealing with. Working on getting my home, job and life in better order so I can have the time and the vision to see what I want to do with my life. We often try to hurry through things and make decisions that we are not in a place or mindset to make. So I am making little decisions and changes until I get to a point where I can see what my true options are and what I want to do with them.
I learned when I first took this journey of getting physically healthy that I did it to fast and made decisions without truly understanding what my options were and what I was doing to myself and everyone around me. I then spent a better part of 2 years recovering from it all but now am seeing the mental side of things got the better of me and sent me down some paths I did not know about and maybe should not have taken or handled the way I did.
Oh well to wrap it up I am rebuilding myself again this year and next and am happy about that even though it will be challenging and I will make many mistakes. Just have to do my best, take my time and understand I will not always get the results I want/expect and that is ok.
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  • no profile photo MLR_00
    856 days ago
    Sounds like you are taking good steps. I'm getting back on track with diet and exercise too after losing some ground. You continue to be an inspiration.
    908 days ago
    You've got this! Sounds like you are taking all the right steps to get balance in your life. Holding you in prayer for healing on all levels.
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    928 days ago
    I wouldn't be the person I am today if it hadn't been for the work I've done with my therapist over the past 12 years or so...! Good for YOU!

    I realize being off-track and on-track are relative terms...but jeez it's hard to conceive of you ever being OFF track, lol!

    Stay Sparkin'! :-)

    939 days ago
    Good luck
    939 days ago
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