Can't Stop Torturing myself about my Weight
Monday, August 05, 2013      7 comments

I am still incredibly obsessed with my fat stomach and the fact that I am still obese. I am not able to get my dictator/restrictor in gear and "diet down." I know that I need to proceed with loving kindness, but I also feel that I just wan... Read more
IPA Warms Me Up on a FReeeeeZing NYC Day!
Saturday, March 10, 2012      6 comments

Ray was in town for March madness and we were able to schedule a Saturday morning stroll from Central Park to Rockefeller Center. We had no problem spotting one another when we got to our meeting point in Columbus Circle. I loved the... Read more
January Musings: If I were a sculptor.
Saturday, January 28, 2012      2 comments

As part of my goals I am going to blog at least once a month as a way of connecting here at Spark. Its 28 days into the month and I am finally here. I am happy to be actively losing weight and getting back into the jeans I had been ... Read more
Keep Calm and Carry On
Sunday, March 20, 2011      6 comments

I had the loveliest workout yesterday. And I realized that my workouts are sacred to me. I started having a sense of this for some time now. As I work out I have a sense of vigil. Especially when I am outside walking/jogging. It start... Read more
Bed Cardio
Sunday, February 13, 2011      2 comments
n-bed.html Found this in another member's blog.... Read more
Never underestimate the power of exercise to pull you out of a dark hole.
Saturday, June 12, 2010      17 comments

Don't quite know where to begin so I will jump right in and go stream of consciousness on you. I had fallen off the exercise wagon for the past two weeks...a head cold and horrible humidity was doing me in. And then this week I was getting... Read more
"Love myself into a healthy relationship with eating." ala Boo
Saturday, April 17, 2010      6 comments

I am feeling good. I am down weight since the beginning of the year. I am coming up on one year of being active here at Spark. In honor of that I have pumped up my game. I want to be in my next five pound range. I find that I get to a f... Read more
like the movie, love the book
Thursday, January 14, 2010      4 comments

I just watched the ending of the "Secret Life of Bees." I resisted the movie for so long, because I love the book so much.....but my husband was watching it so I jumped in too. I just love the final lines when she writes: Sometimes in... Read more
Sitting with shame sucks...but not pushing it down with food is superb.
Friday, January 08, 2010      15 comments

I've been having a difficult day. Something at work set off a lot of feelings of inadequacy.......I have been craving feed all after noon. I haven't given in to the cravings. And sat with them and I got to the shameful feeli... Read more
New Year Musing
Sunday, January 03, 2010      4 comments

I had a fabulous New Years and enjoyed the holidays thoroughly. I feel I have so much to celebrate and be thankful for since I have turned my health and weight around this past year. I was reflecting on the past year and my weight loss. ... Read more
Holidays are not the beginning of the end of my health and well being!
Saturday, December 26, 2009      2 comments

The holidays are actually good for my soul! WooHoo! The holidays were fun! I was so freaked out about this the day before, but I think I felt kind of like a normal person. I indulged in the holiday fare...I even ate cheesecake that was g... Read more
Wanda Sykes
Sunday, October 11, 2009      3 comments

Her HBO special, which premiered last night, had me laughing good and hard. She talked about her problem with belly fat. She names it Esther and gives Esther a voice. Esther wants bread, booze and cheesecake! And she is demanding....the ... Read more
The morning after or my "I could have had a V8!" Moment
Saturday, October 03, 2009      3 comments

Out with frinds for dinner last night. I wound up ordering a pasta dish with shrimp chicken and a cream sauce. had a few cookies back at the house and rigght before bed one bite of bread with a dab of peanut butter. During the night had a... Read more
why don't I do this more
Thursday, October 01, 2009      3 comments

Tired, not hungry,but before spark I think I would be eating, grazing right about now. I'm just a little lonely for food. It was a friend...or so it seemed. I love the quote, "The emptiness of being too full." I think it captures the awf... Read more
Is there a storm a comin' ?
Sunday, September 13, 2009      6 comments

I wrote once about the fear of a tidal coming to end all I have accomplished in the past 5 months. I think I feel smaller waves coming to get me. I am taking nibbles here and there. Yesterday, I went to restaurant and go right for the dumpl... Read more

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