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What's Eating me?
Thursday, January 10, 2013      3 comments

I've been binging all day. Chips, too many protein bars, some popcorn. My stomach is tight and I'm still contemplating eating. This is emotional. I'm not hungry. I miss my soulmate. It's been 9+ months since he passed. Some days I fe... Read more
At War With Myself
Monday, December 24, 2012      4 comments

I've been binging for the last week, and it shows. At first I blamed all my emotional binging on visiting with my family. They cause me a lot of stress, which is why I live so far away from them in the first place. They in Chicago; me in Virgini... Read more
Without Fail
Friday, December 21, 2012      4 comments

I notice that when I go home for the holidays/travel, it makes me anxious. That anxiety causes me to over eat. I just eat, and eat because I'm scared. I am taking my two boys to see my mother. My sister is well, let's just say less than accomoda... Read more
Our Deepest Fear
Friday, December 21, 2012      1 comments

A FB friend posted this. I've read it before, but each time I read it, I get more meaning. I hope it will bring awareness to all that read it here. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful be... Read more
Chip's Birthday Today
Friday, December 21, 2012      4 comments

Today is his birthday. He's not here. He's with our heavenly father. It is a difficult day. I am a bit stuck, but planning to exercise inspite of my emotions. Love my Chip, and miss him dearly. That is all.... Read more
To My Friends -- You Know Who You Are
Thursday, December 20, 2012      2 comments

It's been a while. I miss my friends. I thank each and every one of you for sending kind words, a goodie, or just thinking about me. I've been on a hiatus since I lost my true love on March 30, 2012, but I need to be here again. I see myself sl... Read more
It's Been 98 Days
Thursday, April 26, 2012      7 comments

I left 98 days ago. I'm back. I'm not the same person. I lost my better half, my soulmate, love, and best friend. That was March 30, 2012. I will never be the same person and my life has forever changed. Sometimes I feel so stuck. Life con... Read more
Starting My Journey with OA
Thursday, January 19, 2012      6 comments

I decided that my issues are really compulsive eating, eating for comfort, and eating to avoid whatever makes me feel uncomfortable. I don't think that any food plan -- be it low carb, low fat, or whatever will cure me of my illness with food. I... Read more
I looked at My Cat Today...
Sunday, December 04, 2011      1 comments

and I thought, why couldn't it be you? Why couldn't you be the one with the terminal illness. Yes, I like you even love you, but why does it have to be my soulmate who is dying. He's dwindling, and I'm watching him slowly sink. I have faith that... Read more
It's Been Three Days
Tuesday, November 15, 2011      1 comments

since I learned that my BF has been diagnosed with stomach cancer. We live together. I am his advocate, his partner, his best friend, and his love. I'm so lost in all of this. I'm just trying to make sense of it. I go from disbelief to sadn... Read more
Here's the Cure for Problems Leaving Comment on Spark Page
Friday, October 14, 2011      1 comments

This drove me nuts for months after I started using my new laptop. Basically, each time I tried to leave a comment on someone's spark page, I got a big fist response, and was prevented from commenting. Here's the cure. Hold down the control butt... Read more
Advocating for My Father...Beware of Nursing Homes
Friday, September 30, 2011      3 comments

I haven't been able to sleep well. This nursing home that my father is in is indecent and immoral. And here's why. My father entered the nursing home on Friday, September 16. I received a voicemail late that evening saying that my father doesn't... Read more
Today I End the Lie
Friday, August 19, 2011      7 comments

So, I've gained five pounds, and this is what my scales told me this morning. I've neglected to change my ticker for a weeks now -- probably closer to a month and a half. It was easy to do, because I avoided the scale. And of course denial only ... Read more
I Don't Need to Join Another Team
Tuesday, July 05, 2011      6 comments

So I'm sitting here. Disappointed in myself. Disappointed that I still have huge emotional issues connected to my eating. It happens so quickly. I have a problem...I feel a need to suppress the uncomfortable feeling...I quickly stuff something i... Read more
Time to Dig
Monday, May 02, 2011      3 comments

When I'm full and I continue to eat, there's something wrong. It's 2:00 p.m., and I've eaten 1,096 calories. My stomach is tight, and if I could I'd still be eating. Time to dig. What's digging @ me? It's anxiety. Anxiety about my children, my j... Read more

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